So, I just wanted to share a few thoughts before bed. I’ve spent a lot of time feeling bitter and holding onto anger from the past, and feeling miserable in my hurt. A lot of it stemmed from trying to protect myself. I thought, I’ve worked hard for this anger, and I need it to keep me from being hurt again. I just wanted to share two realizations that I had though:
- Nothing bad is going to happen to you if you release the pain and cease being angry. You don’t have to anxiously protect yourself with your anger. God’s got you.
- There is nothing anybody has ever done to you that God cannot heal.
It may not be the last time I feel upset, but I feel at peace right now. I am working on forgiving others and letting it go, for my own sake, for God, and even for the ones that hurt me. I’m not a big believer in the “do it for you, they don’t matter” thing, because I believe everyone has value and it hurts to be unforgiven. So for everyone’s sake, I’m trying to let go of bitterness today. I think anxiety is a big factor, because Psalm 37:8 says:
Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret–it leads only to evil.
Catch the word “fret”? “…Do not fret…”. I feel like my anger is anxiety related, and my anger is how I protect myself. But, I am learning that I don’t need to anymore, because like I said, God’s got me, and there’s nothing anybody has done to me that God can’t heal. I’m not permanently damaged, and nothing bad will happen if I forgive. It’s safe to let it go.
So, I hope this was a helpful, and thanks for stopping by my blog. I’m gonna get some rest now, as I didn’t sleep well last night. God bless,