So, I just wanted to make an uplifting post today. I have been diagnosed with major depression several times by different doctors and therapists. The first time was back in 2012. For most of my life, I’ve been very deeply heartbroken and depressed. I cry a lot, and I feel miserable on a consistent basis. My thoughts get dark and depressing, and I have a hard time cheering up.
But, ever since I became a Christian, Jesus has always been there for me, under the weight of my sorrow. Sometimes it feels like I’m carrying it all alone, but the reality is that Jesus has always been there, shouldering my burden. That’s the only reason it hasn’t crushed me. I have attempted suicide several times in my life, but survived each time. It’s a miracle that I’m still here. God spared my life when I should’ve been dead. And I’m here after all this, to tell you this:
Things will get better, they always do. And while they’re not so great, God is with you, carrying you through it. Even when you can’t feel Him there, He is under the weight of your pain, shouldering your burdens for you. If you happen to be thinking about ending your life, just know that that is not the answer. It’s never the answer. I know you’re in agony right now, but instead of self-destructing which will only make it worse, cry out to God. Ask Him to comfort you. Pour your heart out to Him, and He will come rushing to your side. His comforting presence will fill your heart, and you’ll feel peace. Sometimes it seems like it takes all of your strength to just ask God for comfort. But it’s worth it. Just hold on until the storm passes, and the sun will shine again. God loves you, and He is there for you in your pain. He cares about you, and you’re not alone. It’s tempting to say “no He doesn’t!” and feel hopeless about ever finding relief. I know that dark place; I’ve been there. But I’m here to say, relief is coming. Just hold on; God will come through for you, and you’ll have your joy back. Be patient and wait for the light. And again, lean on God through the despair. He is always only a prayer away.